Phil Jagielka has admitted he cried uncontrollably when he learned that he would miss the FA Cup final.
The Everton defender was stretchered off after picking up a knee injury during Saturday's 2-1 defeat at home to Manchester City.
Club physio Mike Rathbone later announced that Jagielka had ruptured his anterior cruciate ligament and would not play again this season.
Having scored the winning spot-kick in Everton's semi-final victory over Manchester United, Jagielka was distraught to be ruled out of the showpiece against Chelsea.
"I was crying and I couldn't control it. I couldn't see my friends or my family because I felt myself fill up," he said in The Sun.
"One minute I would be fine making jokes and the next I would be crying my eyes out.
"I went for the scan straight away because I wouldn't have slept. After that they knew there was a gap where my cruciate was supposed to be."
Jagielka concedes it will be difficult to watch his team-mates from the sidelines at Wembley.
He added: "It won't be a nice feeling but I've played a decent part in getting us to the final - and I know I'll be there to see us lift the cup."