Southend United's on-loan defender Pat Baldwin has revealed his disappointment at how his career at rivals Colchester has turned sour.
The centre-half has been with the Us since joining from Chelsea in 2002, but has seen his first-team chances quashed since Aidy Boothroyd replaced the Norwich-bound Paul Lambert in September.
Since then he has proven his worth as a reliable defender whilst on loan at Bristol Rovers, who were keen to make the move permanent, but the deal collapsed.
However, he made a great first impression at Southend by heading home a last-gasp equaliser on his Shrimpers' debut against Swindon, but he will have to sit out Monday's Essex derby clash between the two sides.
"I would have loved to have played in tonight's Essex derby, he told skysports.com.
"I have always enjoyed playing in them in the past, but unfortunately that is part of the loan terms and I'll just have to watch from the sidelines."
The 27-year-old has made 223 appearances for the Us over the last seven years, but his time at the club seems to be almost over after being frozen out of the side and Baldwin told of how frustrating this season has been for him.
"It is a disappointing end to my time there because it is a great club with brilliant fans, so it is a difficult way to end things, but that is out of my hands really.
"All I can do is move on and look to further my career elsewhere because no one wants to stay where they are not wanted.
"I'm not getting too carried away with things at the moment, but if at the end of the loan spell all parties are happy then a permanent deal (at Southend) could be on the cards.
"I'm just going to see how things go because I'm well aware how quickly things can change in football."