Wales manager Chris Coleman is not looking forward to the extreme sadness of Wednesday's friendly against Costa Rica which will provide a memorial to Gary Speed.
It will be the nation's first game since former boss Speed took his own life in November and will be a very emotional evening at the Cardiff City Stadium.
Coleman has been appointed as the new Wales boss, but he does not want any attention on his new job and is instead determined to pay tribute to his predecessor.
The Football Association of Wales announced the game as a memorial and Coleman, who was friends with Speed for 30 years, knows it will be a difficult night.
"I'm not looking forward to the game, to be honest," said Coleman in the Guardian. "But it's fitting that we have got an international game that is for Speeds.
"Solely for him. For nobody else."
Coleman also said: "This is for Gary Speed. It's not my first game. I just couldn't do it. It's for Gary and his family. And that's all it's about.
"I know people have said to me, 'Well, Chris, you haven't got many games to prepare for Belgium [in the first World Cup qualifier, in September]'. I say, 'Listen, football, compared to how important this is ... football is in the background'."