Sone Aluko admits a spell out of the Hull City side left him wondering whether he might have to move on this summer.
The January arrivals of Nikica Jelavic and Shane Long have provided added competition for places at the KC Stadium, with attacking berths now hard to come by.
Aluko has found that out the hard way, with manager Steve Bruce again overlooking him for Sunday's FA Cup semi-final clash with Sheffield United at Wembley.
Yannick Sagbo was selected as a lone frontman against the Blades, with Aluko only introduced at the interval as the Tigers battled back from falling behind on two occasions to secure a thrilling 5-3 win.
Aluko admits time spent as a spectator has left him frustrated and, despite only signing a new contract in the New Year, questioning whether his long-term future lies away from the KC Stadium.
The Nigeria international told the Hull Daily Mail: "It was very frustrating not to start (at Wembley).
"I was disappointed I didn't start. If you are not playing in the league and you are not playing in the cup, then you start thinking, 'What game am I going to play in?'
"I can only show the manager if I am playing, it's hard to show in the last 15 or 20 minutes of games. It's not easy to come on and make an impact on a game if there is a flow to the game or a pattern to the game. I want to play in every game.
"If you are not playing in the league or in the cup games, then pretty much you are not playing at all and you start thinking, 'Is this for me? Do I need to find a new club?'
"It does go through your head, so it was important for me to come on and make an impact. It was good to show the manager what I can do and hopefully it bodes well."
Aluko hopes he will have a more prominent role to play over the coming weeks, starting in Sunday's home date with Arsenal - a side the Tigers will meet again in the FA Cup final on 17th May, by which time their Premier League fate will have been decided.
Aluko added: "Hopefully we are safe, we are almost safe. Maybe we need another win but hopefully we can get that this weekend and by the FA Cup final we will be safe.
"It's not every year you get to a cup final, some players never get to a final. We are looking forward to it.
"It will be a tough game on Sunday and it will be a tough final as well.
"The pressure is on them in the final, though, because they haven't won a trophy for a while so hopefully we can play free from that and play well."