Coventry City's Trinidad & Tobago midfielder Chris Birchall insists he has been powerless to act in the latest club versus country row to have exploded.
Birchall and his team-mate Stern John were called up for their country's friendlies against St Vincent and Panama earlier this month.
Sky Blues boss Micky Adams claimed the games were 'meaningless' and the club wrote to Fifa to try to force the duo's premature return.
For 22-year-old Birchall, stuck in the middle, it has been a real quandary and he admits he just wants to patch things up between the parties for the future.
"I accept that friendlies don't have a great deal of meaning but, as players, we don't have a choice in the matter," Birchall told the Coventry Telegraph.
"It is difficult for everyone involved because the club want us to stay and our country want us to go, so I understand both parties.
"It is a difficult situation because in normal circumstances, obviously we want to play for both club and country.
"The gaffer has been great with me about it."