Injury-jinxed Bolton star Stuart Holden is trying to be positive as he endures revolutionary rehab in an attempt to kick-start his career.
The talented midfielder has had a nightmare season, making a brief comeback from a broken kneecap only to discover ligament damage that extended his lay-off.
Now the 26-year-old American is back in the States training on an anti-gravity treadmill that allows him to run without damaging his troublesome knee.
Holden is even coping with electric shock treatment on his muscles, aimed at keeping him sharp in the hope of making a return to the professional game.
And the player is maintaining an optimistic outlook in order to keep his spirits up.
"I spent about a week being p***** off," Holden told The People.
"I think about it and then, bang, it's gone and I'm only looking forward because you can't change the past.
"I've always looked on the positive side of everything. I have to at this point. I'm thankful to be where I am. I know that life could be worse. In six months, I get to play soccer for a living again.
"I'm going through a hard time with rehab. It's lonely, it's testing - but I make a good time of it. It's my way, I guess, of combating the inner feeling that this sucks.
"It's the scary thought of, 'you're not going to play soccer for a living anymore, you'll have to go out into the real world'.
"What's the alternative? Retire? I'm nowhere near the point where I could even contemplate giving up.
"I know I'd get a million other surgeries until I can play again.
"But I'm going to have the best feeling in the world stepping out for Bolton and hearing my name called."
Hoping for lengthy career
It is the thought of a return that is keeping Holden going through these difficult times and the Bolton man is hoping this experience means he will enjoy more luck later in his career.
He added: "If I could, I'd go out and run 20 miles. I just want to go, go, go.
"I'm still 26. You could argue it's prime age but I've had to look at it as time off - years that I haven't put in my legs.
"I just wanted to get them all out of the way early so now I can have an injury-free career. And play until I'm 36."