Avram Grant has described the speculation around his future as West Ham boss in January as a very difficult period.
The Hammers have endured a turbulent campaign that has seen them in the bottom three for the majority of the season.
This has led to constant speculation about Grant's position which came to a head in January following a 3-0 defeat to Arsenal.
In what appeared to be a gesture of farewell, Grant threw a scarf into the crowd as the result left them adrift at the foot of the table with Martin O'Neill tipped for the post.
However, the Hammers board eventually kept faith with the former Portsmouth manager who has now led them to within a point of safety.
"Faced with something like that, you can either give up or continue and I've never given up in my life," Grant told The Times.
"It was a dark time and I wasn't happy. But we have stuck together, the players have responded and it is much better now."
Having dealt with the pressure of the executioner's axe over his head with supreme dignity, Grant could be forgiven for bearing a grudge against his employers.
But the Israeli appears to have little time for such things and his only focus is preserving his team's top-flight status.
"The club didn't want to be in last, they weren't happy with our situation," he added.
"But in the end our owners had faith in me and I will reward them. We knew it wasn't going to be an easy season. Our target was to stay in the Premier League and I believe we will achieve that.
"I came here for four years and I believe in the vision we have for the club. I told the owners that only by having faith in the manager can they have success. They understand that now."
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