Marcus Trescothick has revealed that he recently rejected a request from Andrew Strauss to return to international cricket as a specialist Twenty20 player.
The Somerset batsman, England's most prolific ODI century maker in history, said that the Test captain had asked if he would make himself available for the World Twenty20 this summer.
But the 33-year-old, who quit the international game 13 months ago after the recurrence of a depressive illness caused him to pull out of a pre-season trip to Abu Dhabi, said that the risks a return could pose to his health were just too great.
"I had no choice but to say no," he told the Mail on Sunday.
"I might be wrong but I still believe that if it was as simple as turning up and batting for England, I could do it and succeed.
"Playing cricket for England was the great ambition of my life and, until I became ill, I loved everything about it, so not being able to do so now is a source of great regret.
"I miss the buzz and the stage and the chance to put my ability to the sternest test, and I'd be lying if I said I haven't thought about it often.
"But I know in my heart that the dangers to my health of committing myself to all that goes with international cricket off the field are just too great.
"Since suffering my own version of hell with the illness, I've come too far and made too much progress to put myself and my family at risk again.
"I appreciate the thought and I know Strauss was not trying to put me under any pressure.
"But the time truly has come for me to stop dreaming and face reality. As much as I'd love to have another bash for England, it isn't going to happen, at any level.
"I really hope everyone can accept that part of my story is over for good. It is time for me and for England to move on."